I’ve been a long season of really pressing in for more of God at any cost. I’ve learned that you should only ask God for something unless you are serious, haha. It’s been a year of ups and downs, character molding, stripping away, healing wounds, uprooting hidden fears, boundary setting, core value making. He’s taken me from a place of not even realizing my identity to a place of security of who I am in Him. Not a finished work but He’s set me on a path, I hear His voice, calling me onward, upward. Pressing on towards the prize.
It’s funny when you ask Him to test and mold your character that He brings you in adverse situations to what you are learning. For example, I’ve been crying out for healings and setting a core value for myself that God wants healing. HE WANTS TO HEAL. This was after I’d seen many people be healed on the spot, instantly by God. When I asked Him for more, I had many more chances to pray for people but I wasn’t getting too much breakthrough, not like before. He spoke to me and asked me if I still believed that He’s a God that healed.
That’s hard. To look through my perspective, see the failures. But through God’s eyes it’s a much different picture. He sees obedience to the call on my life, perseverance to keep praying and believing He’s a healer. I don’t know what reason those people didn’t get healed but it really doesn’t matter. My core value is that God heals. My perspective will not change. I am choosing to look through His eyes.
It was my 22nd birthday 2 days ago and the word that I got from the Lord for this year was from Revelation 21:5, “Then He who sat on the throne said, “Behold, I make all things new.”’ It popped into my spirit as I watched and counted down to midnight with my friend, Hannah.
I got a prophetic word later that night from a girl that I don’t know at all about God bringing me into the promised land. I’m in a season of newness, of freshness, of fulfilled promises.
This next year at Bethel is going to be awesome. God spoke to me about this next year. That I’m going to get more character molding, more healing, more freedom, more identity. I just want more of Him. It’s always scary to ask that. To want more of Him at any cost. The cost could be great and am I willing to lay it all down for Him? I say, Yes Lord. Only because I’ve tasted and seen the goodness of the Lord. Only because He first loved me. That’s the only way I have the strength to give myself over.
I don’t know why I’m writing this other than to say, thank You, God. You are so awesome. I love You so much.
